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I just dont know what is going on anymore. First, my best friend completely disowns me because of a terrible misunderstanding and still cannot even begin to forgive me..its tearing me apart, I miss her so much. I never would have even started to imagine my life without her. I thought it would be forever...but I guess that was immensely naive...And now, another misunderstanding...how does this keep happening? How can my motives possibly continue to be questioned when they have no reason to be? I have not changed, I am no different...perhaps in that I am much more grateful now, for sure, for the people that I still love...but in no other way..I could never hope to wish anything on these people that I would not on myself, and it pains me to know that they dont believe it anymore..to think that it is worth it to them to throw away our friendship like that over any of this. I have tried to deny that that may truly be the case..I have stayed hopeful for some reason - she really does care, right? but I guess now I need to realize that maybe its just not true..that maybe I really do deserve it somehow...maybe I didnt do enough to show them how I felt while I had the chance

haha, when I realized that this song was an ABBA cover I laughed soo hard. not gonna lie, I was not expecting that from a somewhat metal band. not like I care-I love it  :P

"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." - Dr. Seuss

so yeah, thats all...and thank you to random EP member, vanillavanity, as my source  :P

Quote from a recent article about Paula's little mistake, and how they aren't going to change the show, "If we're smart about it, there's no reason why 'Idol' wouldn't keep going," said Frot-Coutaz. "Just look at 'Price is Right.' It's been on for over 35 years."

Oh. My. Gosh. Great. That is just what I want - a guarenteed 35 more years of trash.....

Just another fantastically funny Monty Python sketch...

and no, if they took the bones out, it wouldn't be crunchy...

For any of ya'll that don't know what is is and might....care, I shall proceed to tell you some propaganda of how fantastic it is  :D

Built as an open source platform, Last.fm is designed for support on all media players including iTunes, Windows Media Player, Winamp, xBox, TiVo, mobile phones, Slim devices, Launchcast, Yahoo Music Engine and even Pandora. Listeners can link their media players to Last.fm to share songs, statistics and playlists with the Last.fm community. Last.fm’s scrobbling function pays attention to what users are listening to—not just what is listed in their library—and suggests artists, people, and concerts based on their musical preferences. You can even post charts and listening habits to your blog or MySpace and have Last.fm update them automatically. Select a chart from a variety of user-submitted styles or customize your own.

--If you don't just want to track what music you listen to already, but want to find some new stuff as well (a GREAT feature), Last.fm works in a similar way to Pandora. It has predictive software, which pays attention to what you like and dislike and plays new songs based on your selections. You can also recommend tracks to friends, add tags, tell the system you don't like a song, or simply skip ahead to the next track.

Some more sweet stats:

• 15 million unique active users per month
• 350 million times a month people tell Last.fm what tracks they listen to - in other words, Last.fm users submit 12 million daily track submissions
• 65 million different tracks in the music database
• 7 million different artists
• Over 200 countries are represented in the community with US, UK, Germany, Canada leading the pack
• Last.fm has around 150,000 artist wikis and there are around 350,000 different music tags (genres, moods of music).
• Unlike many online music networks, Last.fm connects to 30+ MP3 players – not just iTunes and iPod

So, I highly highly recommend Last.fm (www.last.fm) to anyone who is even remotely interested in or entertained by music.  And just for funsies, here are my recently played tracks (in real time!)

Thanks to ReadWriteWeb for some of this info-I did not feel like typing all this up-it took long enough as it is. :) Oh, and notice how I could make it blue to at least attempt to match the EP interface?? Neato, I know. ( haha, I had to throw something else in :P )

Seriously. Babe is a bad movie. But, fortunately, that is not what this is about. It is, however, about another great song that I adore and just can't get enough of it's cheesy goodness. (Okay, it isn't that cheesy, but they are definitely dressed to the nines for a hair metal cheese fest. But that's quite alright with me ;)  )

The Bitter Pill by Warrant
Sometimes I'm lost - And then I'm found
Sometimes I feel - Turned inside out
I'm often silent when I'm screaming inside
Instead of love - We tend to hate
We never quite - Appreciate
How much the other person cares or tries
And when I'm right - I'm also wrong
We give and take - To get along
There's so much more to this
Than I ever dreamed
And when you smile - I have to laugh
And when you cry - I'm torn in half
So calm and yet so loose at the seams

 And by the way, you should look up the German shouting...funny stuff :P

Well today was just another day. Well, as much as any day can be. Until 6th period, that is. So I ate a habanero....yeah....just cuz. Okay, someone told me to and he didn't think I would so I did. It was stupid. Don't ever do that. And apparently my face turned purple. Although, only about ten minutes later I was thinking it wasn't so bad - like I would do it again. So I don't regret it or anything...and this other kid saw that I ate one, so he did too, but he was stupid about it and he really chewed it up and like practically swooshed it in his mouth...so he was out the door in under a minute and didn't come back for another ten...haha well it was alright. And just for future reference, I hear ketchup works great for spiciness (says the kid who gave me the pepper...because I really had a bottle of ketchup in Chemistry...)...although I kinda think it is spicy itself. So now my stomach isn't very happy but I am still chewing on the three pieces of gum I popped into my mouth about two hours ago....

(if my friend saw this she would totally freak out at all the ellipses I used........................) heh